The Heartbreak Of A Lifetime

It hurts to have the guy you might really love break up with you but it hurts even more to have him ask you back out the next day and you having to answer no to his famous question.So now you two are nothing but friends.You want to be more but you cant because once again this person has made you afraid of love.So you go through the day zoning out non-stop about that person.You know that there are people around you but you can`t hear them all you hear is his voice saying "Baby I love you so much" just like he used too.One of your friends hits you in the arm three times to get your attention.You dont notice she is there untill the third hit.People always ask you "what`s wrong" and you just answer "Nothing,I`m fine".They just say "ok".You go to sleep that night and dream of that one special person.All of a sudden you wake up and hear his voice once again.You go to follow this voice.Then you see him standing in a door way.You go to run after him but once you get there you notice there is nothing but air.So you go back to sleep.This time you dream of your friends and you hanging out in your room.The alarm clock goes off the next morrning and as soon as you wake up you start to cry.You have no idea why your are crying.You have no idea who you are.You no longer feel like yourself.You know that you are going through the worst heartbreak in your life but you don`t feel any of it.You feel like your standing beside yourself watching you go through it.It`s like your watching a movie that you yourself star in.Your body is there but you arent.You ask yourself these questions that have no answer to them.Questions that will never have an answer to them.You are watching your whole world crumble right from under you.There is nothing you can do about this.You just have to sit there and watch the deppressing movie.You have no control of your life anymore.Somehow that one special person is now the director of your life.