Something I never Had.

A tear slowly drops,
Grazing my cheek
As it slides eloquently
Down, resting on my lips

I told myself I wouldn't cry
Not this time and not over you
Yet here I am holding on
To something I never really had

The pain is tearing me apart
Though you smile as though
I'm the only one
I know by the way you are never,

Ever around that it's not true
I will never be the only one.
They assure me it's just a phase
But then they ask me how I put up

With your constant changing.
We had everything they couldn't
Come close to dreaming of
Now, I'm here with nothing but

The memories I stupidly made.
I knew the way you were
Fully aware of the pain you would
Constantly cause.

I hate you. I love you.
It's hard to decide.
Forever. Just today.
Which one can I say?

Words floating through my thoughts
Undeniably beautiful,
A song I long to hear once more
And maybe if I give up now,

Choose to walk away
You would realise what I was
And who I wanted to be...
I love you.