Feelings retention

Feelings retention
Bursts in dreams
What I thought I wasn't
Exceeds extremes

How can I forget it
Each night I dream of it
How can I block it
Each day it grows a bit

It's me not you
My fault not yours
You don't even know
How dark is this thought
Can't lie about
It won't die out
When things go wrong
I'll hide it out

And now, I shut my eyes
Tonight I hope it fades
But I know I'll wake up tomorrow
Unprotected and afraid