C'est la vie

In this sleepless nights I cry
Knowing you never loved me and I don't know why
Was that love a spur in my awaiting demise?
A risk I've take a bad luck in a dice...

I saw you smile in arms of other
It stabbed my bleeding heart that I'm no better
Such sweet torture and sweet nothings
All I've taken and regretted nothing

I hate it when you fake it that I'm important
When it goes the other way around
There was a time you made my heart skip a beat
But now since you kept distance, my heart doesn't have a beat

You're beside me but I couldn't tell your near
You shout, you scream, only my name I couldn't hear
You hug, you kissed no care i can feel
Do I have to cadge some love, Do I have to kneel

Why is it when I needed you the most you never seem to be able to be there?
Is it wrong for me to seek some of your tender love and care?
Just tell me if you don't like me so that my heart would be silent
Tell me where's the love we had, was it only a dent?

Is this the time where life takes you away from me?
Or is this the time fate will grant me one last try to hear you say you loved me...