In Love With Misery

Why do I miss you so much,
When you don't even care about me?
How can I love you so much,
When I'm the girl you can't even see?

Why can't I move on from you,
When you tell me we will never be?
How come I can't love anyone else,
When I already know you don't love me?

Why do I sit around and wait for things to change,
When I already know I can't have you?
Why can't I just go on and accept it?
Why do I wait around for you to love me too?

It's never going to happen,
I can only have you in my dreams.
But I still just can't go on,
The love I feel for you is ripping at the seams.

I hate this horrible feeling I have,
Knowing I can't ever be with you.
I just can't understand why,
What did I ever do?

I tried to be a good friend to you,
I always tried to show that I cared.
At first we seemed so happy,
I remember all the amazing times we shared.

I just wish this would all end,
So I wouldn't be stuck on you forever.
But every time I start fading away from you,
I start loving you more than ever.

I think about you and me all the time,
I can't figure out why you mean so much.
Why just talking to you makes me so happy,
How my whole life is better with just your touch.

And what confuses me the most,
How our feelings are none the same.
I've waited for you to love me for so long,
But you just never came.

How can we feel so different?
I love you, but you don't even care.
You're the guy I've always needed,
Being this heartbroken is so unfair.

I don't know what to do anymore,
To make you change your mind.
There's just no convincing you,
That it's me you need to find.

I can give you everything you want,
You've already satisfied me.
I know how to make you happy,
That's exactly what you need to see.

So maybe I'm not perfect,
Not being pretty enough isn't a crime.
But maybe I can be a great person,
Just give it some time.

I really don't know what else to do,
You're all I think about day and night.
I'm alone in this world of darkness,
But this strong love I have for you is my light.

I've been waiting for this for so long,
To meet someone as right as me for you.
But this wish I make every night is useless,
I can't make you love me too.

I want this more than anything in the world,
You have no idea how hard I've tried.
To just try to get you to notice me presence,
But you caused all these tears I've cried.

So, is it time to just give up,
Or will I ever have my chance?
Should I look for second best,
Or will we ever share a romance?

You need to give me answers,
I'm so lost without a clue,
On how you feel about me,
Are you ever going to love me too?

*If anyone out there actually read all of this, sorry for wasting your time.