A cry upon this lonely heart,
A free spirit now torn apart.
A dying soul left alone to mourn,
Not again to be reborn.
A dream who isn\'t understood,
A wish that isn\'t used for good.
A mind that is very crazy,
Eyes that see everything hazy.
Suffering from mild jealousy,
Hiding it so no one will see.
Hatred filling up my mind,
Waiting to let it unwind.
Crashing into a depression wall,
Waiting for it to finally fall.
Locked inside my fears and doubt,
Still trying to find my way out.
Drenched in my invisable blood,
As my tearing eyes begin to flood.
Looking for where the green grass grows,
Where it is, God only knows.
Tripping over a string of lies,
Only hearing mournful cries.
Too blind to see what is right,
Loosing in a deadly fight.
Falling in a sea of shame,
Knowing that I\\\'ve one insane.
Tempted to end my life,
With the blade of my knife.
Down, down, goes my pain,
Happiness I\'ll finally gain.
No more crying, no more tears,
I\'ll cut away all my fears.
Scream, cry, yell, and shout,
Until all of my blood flows out.
Floating in a sea of red,
Now laying upon my death bed.
I tried to make my life all good,
But it is yet, still understood.
Even I don\'t know what\\\'s wrong with me,
So how can you say that you see?
I wish you could, but you don\'t,
The saddest thing is that you won\'t.
My life\'s a mess, my dreams are dead,
Disturbing thoughts fill up my head.
I scream in a crowded place,
But no one even turns their face.
While everyone else is adored,
I sit alone being ignored.
I am crazy, that is a fact,
We have always been intact.
Pretty, little, stupid lies,
Pretend to steal away my cries.
I climb the mountain of dispare,
Only to find my sorrow there.
I climb back down to leave it behind,
But it just crawls back into my mind.
I\'m crushed between sorrow and pain,
I wish I could just slice a vein.
End this craziness once and for all,
Where is my human firewall?
Why can\'t I stop this, what is wrong?
Could I have done this all along?
Can I make everything alright?
Can I soar off into flight?
Who the hell will answer me?
The wall a guess, or so I see.
Ignorance crawls back in,
Waiting for my deadly sin.
Silent voices I recognize,
And soon they start to hypnotize.
\"Erase your loved ones from your brain,
They were the ones who made you insane!\"
They get louder, circle round and round,
Voices make me drop to the ground.
I cram it all inside, not letting my feelings show,
Maybe if I hide it well, nobody will know.
Building up inside me, it bubbles to the top,
I try my hardest but can\'t make it stop.
This crazy world is confusing me,
This aquard silence won\'t let me be.
It\'s driving me crazy,
My world\'s still hazy.
I try so hard to live my life,
But all I get is pain and strife.
I struggle until my body goes numb,
I hope that maybe someone will come.
Find me lying here on the floor,
And start to care a little bit more.
But the time that they only seem to care,
Is the only time that I\'m not there.
I turn invisable like before,
I am still not adored.
My silent cries till up the sky,
Roaming around and asking why.
I\'m still invisable in this place,
Depression substitutes my face.
I kiss away all happiness,
This joyful mood that I possess.
I have my all and I did try,
But now it\'s time for me to die.
I\'ll die the way that I have planned,
A deep slice just below my hand.
My tearing eyes again will flood,
And I\'ll be in my own pool of blood.
Suicide is now the key,
Resistance is my enemy.
This pain and sorrow I can\'t take,
I must leave for goodness sake.
I try so hard but yet I fail,
Thoughts of happiness are getting stale.
I erase it from my memory,
So then no one will ever see.
This pain, these cries,
These last good-byes.
This feeling I have is just so weird,
Has every emotion in me disappeared?
Not a land I know so well,
Where is the sea inside my shell?
Now time has passed and I have died,
All because..of suicide....
