Why is it that I always make these mistakes?
Every single time I'm actually happy, I ruin it
I thought we'd be together long for this time, but I was wrong
I don't wanna live anymore, I hate my whole life
Every thing crashes down, I tried to change
Nothing I do ever works, I'm just not good enough
I hate everything alive and not, I hate myself
I just don't hate you, you're keeping me alive
I want to end it all, my heart, my brain, my life
There's nothing to live for anymore, it all sucks
I'm not perfect, I'm pretty far from that
I want to be skinny and beautiful, but that's IMPOSSIBLE!
People lie all the time and say I already am perfect
That's some $&!T right there, I JUST WANT TO DIE!
My life is a lie, and all the hell that goes with it
No one would miss me, maybe I should just leave
I'd die for you, you're just keeping me alive
I love you more than I've ever loved anything
In this whole effed up world, you were my happiness
But I messed it up again, and you left once more
I know you want a break, but it's just too hard
My life is nothing without you, and you know that
I understand we're drifting, but I want to fix it
You made the pain disappear, but I need you
There's nothing more I can say, this poem doesn't help
No words can explain the way I feel, I just love you so much
I wish I could take back my mistakes
