A part of her never wants him to find out how she really feels. How she cares so much and just wants to make
ever thing alright for him. She knows deep inside he'll never feel the same about her. She knows hes so locked up,
and if she doesn't show him that she trusts him first he'll always cut her out of his mind, his life and most of all his
heart. She doesn't love him, not yet, maybe not ever, but he already plays a big part of her heart and she knows
he'll always hold a small piece of it that he has torn away from her. What he doesn't know is shes scared, just like him.
He can't tell every time he kisses her she trembles inside, and every time she looks up at him what he thinks is a
blank look with no emotion is all the feelings in the world wrapped up and thrown into her steel blue eyes looking
back up into his. He doesn't know that every shooting star, every 11:11, every chance she gets she wishes he could
take a risk with her and somehow find a way to let her in and tell her his thoughts; so she could maybe one day
smile up at his smile, look up into his eyes and know what hes thinking and how he's feeling without so much as one
word escaping his lips. She wants to tell him that she cares, that she'd give anything to give him just one moment of
pure happiness, that she'd take all his burdens off his shoulders if she ever could. But shes scared he'd tell her that her
thoughts are stupid, that she can't do anything she desires too; that shes just another naive girl with too big of hopes
and no thought of reality. That her wishes should go without because they are a waste of her breath. He would say
wishes don't come true, stop trying, your wasting a perfectly good moment. She knows his thoughts would be of
doubt of stupidity. But she doesn't blame him, she knows herself that she can't just jump into his life and change things
for him, but she wants too, so she'll keep trying. For now though she'll keep her thoughts inside hoping, wishing, praying
he'll soon see her as not just a girl but a girl trying to make things right for him, or at least trying to make them a bit
better. Although she doesn't love him, not yet, maybe not ever but then again it could be sooner then later.
