A scream for help

Every night before I go to bed,
I plead god to rescue me.

I ask him to stop the red tears from falling,
and the black blood from oozing.

To shower me with happiness,
And take away this emptiness

This pain that I feel within is slowly killing
little by little it takes my life, leaving me with nothing.

The tears that I spill are invisible,
no one can see them no one but I can feel them.

Every tear is razor sharp,
Everytime one falls it stabs me in the heart.

And no one can prevent it because no one can see,
all the pain I hold inside me.

I attempt to scream but there is only silence.

No one can hear me no one can the see the fear
that lies beneath.

Look at me closely and you'll seethe fear in my eyes,
listen closely and perhaps you'll hear their cries.

Look at my wrists and you'll see "help" engraved,
rip off my heart and you'll see thats its been slayed.

What's wrong you ask?
I reply nothing, when really I want to scream
everything!

Easily you are convinced that everything is fine.
why can't you see its just a lie?

A fake smile its all it takes
for you to belive I'm okay.

But you have to do me favor and look beyond that,
look behind that pretty smile,
pay attention to what you see.
and maybe just maybe you can help me.