A Trail Of Memories

If tomarrow never comes,
Will my past and future be zeroed out?
Should I live life to the fullest,
Or should I consider any doubts?

They haunt me everyday you know,
In reality and in my dreams.
They make my life unreal,
Not at all what it seems.

I could be so happy sometimes,
Then I see the vision and my heart gets weak.
My chest starts to get heavy,
And I am unable to speak.

In my dreams their there the most,
Making it unable to open my eyes.
My dreams begin to envy my reality,
As they both come together and intwinge.

Even if I collect the vague words I've missed,
In every event of my past.
These memories won't let go,
They seem to forever last.

I always wonder, trying to find something,
That's precious and wouldn't change.
But it's simply impossible,
When all these visions remain.

I let my heartbeat echo through the dark,
Ignoring all the pain because it's so close.
As I fight away all these thoughts,
And pray for what I desire the most.

I just cry, following this trail of memories,
I've tried to lock away.
There's no use in trying to hide them,
They will forever be with me, everyday.

Thank you for reading, it means alot. Please let me know what you think. thanks.

-Ashlei.