Never wanted this life.

I never wanted this life
didn't want to hate myself so much
i wanted to be the very best
didn't ever wanna give up

but here i am
full of anxiety and fear
people stopped calling
fell outta touch over the years

i dont blame them
cos i never put in any time
who was i to expect
that they could have seen the signs

i left them everywhere,
on my wrists and the way i spoke,
left the pages open
to the notebook where i wrote.

Not finished.