My thoughts and feelings right now

Everything was fine
got a boyfriend
got ma first kiss
everything was perfect...
until now
why did this happen to me
what did i do wrong
i love him, i miss him
i don't know what to do
my heart is hurting
i am breaking apart
i can't focus
am losing it
i smile, i laugh
but my eyes don't do the same
it hurts, it hurts so much
this is not fair
why does he have to move away
why does this happen to us
i miss him
we slowly growing apart
hes going through a lot of things right now
and there's nothing i can do to help him
i don't know what to do
how did things go from happy and blissful
to sadness and sorrowful
it's not fair
it wasn't even long
just when things were getting better
can't believe this is happening
everything is spiraling out of control
i love him
got too close
now am hurt and wounded
it feels like someone reached out and pulled my heart out of me
things can't get any worse than this
yup, this is rock bottom
i love him, i miss him
i hope we don't lose each other