Months past and still the same thinking of you missing you,I thought hell changed me but it didnt ,i go mad trying to figure my self out , through out my room nonsense fills my walls my boddy consumed by questions who?when ? how ? .
I sometimes question myself,the pressure so intense a knife my easy escape,the peace i had suddenly disappears i never would of guessed that gods punishment would be so harsh.
the days go dark in my new world from a proud man i go weak my god keeps me down wont get out of my head,no mercy on me no peace hell changed me but god made me miserable a heartless man just wandering living a life full a misery . attached to lost memories days go by..in darkest days i travel the world looking for the soul I so much need the love my body craves
My god has forsaken me into nothing, he has blinded me so I dont see my future , i hear laughter on the distance my body rejoice but a false hope a trickery from god to break me even more i travel the world searching for such things but find nothing only disgrace .
one day i will over come gods curse and live the life i so much desire this i promis you..
