Days drawn to a close...

Days drawn to a close but silence is all I know,
I thought that you wouldn't play the fools show.
What I really felt you couldn't tell,
And every single memory rings a bell.

Of how we used to be together all the time,
Just you and me - it was the best rhyme.
We could walk across the water without dreading the waves,
The story we once knew working in numerous ways.

But that all changed one day too soon,
And in the dawn of tomorrow I heard your new tune.
All your words were just fake and lies,
Every effort and attempt was another dare you tried.

A fool I was to fall into your trap,
Thinking you were the one I'd be with at every step.
And I so wanted to believe that I had a life with you,
Cos the first day you walked in there was something new.

Something beyond this world that's hard to relate,
But all I can do now is hate,
Hate every word you ever said.
Every single day you helped me when I was sad.

It's just another torture in my mind,
A reminder that true love is so hard to find.
When you said "I love you", I believed it with my entire heart and soul,
I never thought that you would dust me off and throw me into the cold.

So where to from now is all I can ask?
Do I pick up the pieces and hide behind this mask?
I loathe and hate your every presence,
It's for you I gave up my very life's essence.

I hate myself more for listening to you,
Always dancing to your tune.
Never once thinking that what I was doing was not right,
That you're playing me like a fool so I'll never get up and fight.

Damn boy, you struck me so hard and so fine.
Broke my soul and innocence in such a short time.
Looking in the mirror to only revel in disgrace,
Within each eye only shines distaste.

Cos you dragged me around just like a tool,
Took me for a ride like the latest fool.
Pushed me around like I had no other,
As though I wasn't even born from a mother.

Yeah, you grinded me real deep,
And for that I hate you even in my sleep.
But more than that I hate myself for being so weak,
Caught under your spell not once realising pleasure is all you seek.

Where the hell do I now fit in?
Who will look at me now and not judge me by my deed?
Where to now that I've lost all that I've achieved,
Washed away by this false sense of greed.