For the past couple days
You've been trying not to sleep
^^I think a lot of people are avoiding sleep right now, jesse. if you don't sleep, you can't dream. the thing with sleeping is, you look forward to going home and going to bed all day and then by the time you get there all you want to do is not be there...
The only thing worse than nightmares
Is a realistic dream
^^ This week...it's felt like reality sucks more than the nightmares. in fact, i enjoy the nightmares a little bit because it's just....it's better. it's easier. fear to replace the lonely, dead, heavy feeling. It's more alive.
The kind where you wake up
And you're torn apart
^^I told taylor, but i haven't told you. I keep having dreams where I wake up and don't remember anything except for the feelings. I remember feeling terrified and then feeling alone. I remember feeling you and taylor there and then right after that feeling a void..like you left. and that's so scary..
Because you needed it to happen
The dreamer that you are
^^ I'm pretty sure that there's a lesson there, but I don't know what it is. I'm...I don't know. I don't understand. I just know that those last two lines made me feel guilty and empty. Which is great use of word choice...