I've learned
how to have a
conversation with you....
ask a question,
listen,
respond with enthusiasm,
proceed accordingly.
but all it is,
really,
is stupid jabber-
listening to,
talking about,
silly things like
football (which i don't understand)
friends (whihc we barely have in common)
classes (whihc we don't have together)
Drill (which you can't do anymore)
when what i really want is
just to listen to you breath
lay my head on your chest
and memorize your hearbeat
map out paths on your skin
feel you fingers in my heair.
but I can't have any of that
so i settle with
the same old
while I dream about
all that i wish...
