Came Down In Defeat

The torture surrounds me, there's nowhere to hide.
What should I do? The pain won't subside.

It pulses through my veins, sears through my soul.
Leaves me shaking with anger, I have no control.

You tried to spare me the hurt, I can tell you really tried.
But you just hurt me more, and now I'm numb inside.

I sit and bite my tongue; sit and bite my cheek.
My mouth is filled with blood from trying not to speak.

I paste on my smile, the look for everyday.
In my eyes you can see the things I won't say.

I blink back the tears, although they burn my eyes.
I won't say how I feel, you won't see through my disguise.

I've hidden my heart, 'cause I'm tired of this deceit.
Because I rose to your level, and came down in defeat.