I'm not supposed to live my life wishing I was there.
I'm not supposed to waste my time proving I don't care.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to use my voice, trying to give you help.
I'm not supposed to save you, when I can hardly save myself.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to like you, or to feel this way.
I'm not supposed to tell you the things I shouldn't say.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to think about how this isn't right.
I'm not supposed to lay alone, every empty night.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to stare into those beautiful brown eyes.
I'm not supposed to touch you and have an electric feeling of surprise.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to miss you, whenever you are gone.
I'm not supposed to stay with you when I really should move on.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to understand the hurt and continue to try.
I'm not supposed to fight, to see past all the lies.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to be sorry, when this isn't about me.
I'm not supposed to stare, sad and so plainly.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to ask, if I don't wanna hear.
I'm not supposed to sigh, or to shed a tear.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to smile, when I wanna cry.
I'm not supposed to laugh, when I wanna die.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to want what really can't be mine.
I'm not supposed to wish that I could turn back time.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to become everything I'm not.
I'm not supposed to remember the things I once forgot.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to hold on tight, wanting it to end.
I'm not supposed to fake it, pretending we were friends.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to lie about what you've done to me.
I'm not supposed to swear on something that I don't believe.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to know that this is my fate.
I'm not supposed to say it, when I really don't hate.
xxxx
I'm not supposed to act this way, or acknowledge you.
But no one taught me different so that's EXACTLY what I'll do.
