I still do

Why?
why do i do this to myself?
why do i allow myself to get so close,
just to get pushed away?
over and over again i let this happen
and over and over again i cry myself to sleep.

he was my first,
my first love
my first kiss
the first boy i danced with
the first boy to hold my hand.

he left me cold and lonely for so long...
why?
why am i letting him back in?
alls he wants is friendship..

but i still love him...
i love him
i love him
i love him

its time to switch positions.
make him wonder why
I'll push him away
make him wonder why he let me back in.
he says he loves me
he misses me
but friendship is what he needs
what about what i need?

here we go again