I Wish

Is it wrong for someone to hate their life?
Or is it wrong that i want to end mine with a knife?
Well, I don't see either as wrong.
I just see them as a way out, or a way to move on.
Life is just to hard for me to bare.
Because the blood from my arm is just to much to despair.
I wish i could put myself out of this misery.
Or even fill up on those bottles of ecstasy.
So much pain and heartache at one time.
But everyone around me thinks that my life is such a perfect dime.
They don't even feel or understand, why every night i have a knife in my hand.
I wish this could be my last goodbye.
But thats just something I'm going to have to decide.