Deadliest Cost

If only I could give you my mind in a bottle.
If only my heart in a paper bag.
If only you could grasp my soul in a throttle
and not experience any lag.

I wish I could print my memories on your skin.
I wish I could scribble questions on your brain.
I wish I could record your dreams within
and discover what's keeping you sane.

Instead I may only say what I think.
Instead I can show and say I love you.
Instead soul and dreams will be in ink
and see from insanity's point of view.

I wonder if heartbeats know numbers or names.
I wonder if veins pulse love or hate.
I wonder if pictures truly belong in those frames
and if outcome is a nicer word than fate.

Inside my body is a battle unseen.
Inside my heart and mind are at war.
Inside they fight as a daily routine
and neither know what they're fighting for.

In the end not all of us can be saved.
In the end some battles will be lost.
In the end we travel a path unpaved
and some result in the deadliest cost.

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Yeah....I began with about three stanzas with I's starting the sentences, so I just stuck with it.