I gaze his eyes,
Mesmerized by two dark pools,
Remind me only of sadness,
Hiding something he never speak of....
A charming face and attitude,
A tall and lanky body,
Making every girl's head turn,
But he never know...
A lonely boy,
Who speaks to no one,
Who nobody seems to notice nor care,
But me...
I smiled at him for the first time,
Only emptiness I received,
Still wouldn't give up till he gave in,
His name was Allen...
We started to talk,
His small smile brighten up my day,
But pain behind those eyes,
Never fades...
A boy who loves nature,
And play music,
A song he played for me,
Represent his pain I can almost feel...
Yet I never dare to ask,
Never have the courage to do anything,
But to stand by him everyday,
Hoping to bring nothing but happiness into his life...
He's like an angel sent from above,
To listen to my words,
A shoulder for me to lean,
And someone for me to help and understand...
Days turned weeks,
Weeks turned months,
Months turned a year,
That is how long we have been friends...
The first time he looked into my eyes deeply,
As if he's searching something within me,
My heart missed a beat,
I wonder if he knew?
A strong feeling start to form in me for him,
But behind that mysterious handsome face,
I can't see how he feels,
I start to wonder if this is love....
But who knew?
Time went by too fast,
Fate ended too fast,
Without realizing I loose him...
The first time he looked away from me,
I felt confused,
I wonder what's wrong but he refused to talk,
Leaving me there hanging don't know what to do....
I tried understand what's wrong but he wouldn't let in,
So as a stubborn girl,
I walked out of his life,
He broke his promise why couldn't I?
Our friendship broke just like that,
My happiness and laughter crumble along with it,
Anger and coldness start to built up in my life,
I forgot the meaning of life....
We avoided each other,
I pretended to went on with my life,
I pretended I'm fine without him,
But he knew the truth...
For three whole week,
He was absent from school all the time,
I tried to act like I don't care,
But I couldn't help but worried...
I went around his house after school that Friday,
Only his sad eyed father answered the door,
And told me the news,
My life was nearly taken by those words....
"He went to his mother, he's finally happy now."
Was what his father said.
"He caught brain cancer, didn't he tell you?"
His voice echo in my ear...
Suddenly all the questions I've been wondering about him is answered,
I finally know why he avoided me,
I finally know why he hurt me so bad...
A letter was handed to me by his father,
Written by Allen himself,
This is what is says...
"Hey, girl. Allen here, right now, I'm probably be gone now. You might be really pissed off with me right now, but all I've done had been for your own good. I caught cancer when I was very young, always weak and my mum was the one who's always by my side. That night when I was nine, my sick got worse and was rushed to hospital. Ran into an accident on the way and God took my mum away with him. All along I blamed myself and it's my fault. Even when my dad told me it's not, why do I always feel so guilty when I saw him crying silently in the middle of the night in his bed?.
I'm really sorry, for hurting you all along. I'm sorry, for not telling you my story sooner. I'm sorry I broke our promise and I'm sorry, for leaving you. I can't change my fate, so I didn't tell, afraid I would push you back to darkness, afraid to make you cry. I'm sorry I lied, I'm sorry for whatever pain I've caused you. And one last thing I want you to know, I really love you. Even though I'm too late now. I love you for who you are, I love you when you're angry, I love you, even when your hair is a mess, I love you even more when you do nothing but just give me the smile that meant the whole world to me..Remember that, I love you, I still do, and always will...Just remember this well..."
Reality hit me like a truck,
A lone tear rolled down my eye,
But it's too late to say I love you too,
I have million of words to tell him,
But it's too late now,
I can't even say how sorry I am...
(catch my part 2, the other side of the story) thanks for reading and please vote...
