I still don't understand,
why you did what you did to me.
And how you never cared,
is still so hard for me to see.
How could you just leave,
a little girl lying on the floor?
You just got up and left,
not thinking of it, any more.
Do you know how bad i felt?
and how ashamed i still feel?
Wondering if I'm going insane.
Questioning if it was real.
For years, I've lived with so much guilt,
For years I've lived with so much Shame.
not telling a living soul,
Never dared mention your name.
You made me think, it was my fault.
I'd get in trouble if i told.
You wouldn't have thought what it'd make me.
Not knowing it made me so alone and cold.
For know one still fully knows,
what happened that September Night.
But i can picture it clearly,
It was when you screwed up my life.
I wonder if you still remember.
i Wonder if you ever did care.
About the little girl, that loved you.
But her soul you did tear.
Everyone thinks, that I'll be okay.
Not knowing the battle i fight.
i wake up screaming and shaking.
in the middle of the night.
cause they all think I'm strong,
Strong enough to handle it on my own.
That's just another reason,
why, in this world, i feel alone.
So when it gets to much,
I'll slide that metal across my wrist
So deep, it will make me numb,
So weak, i can't clench my fist.
And what's so tempting,
is that i know i can end it.
I could be free and finally happy.
With one, deep and final slit.
