Fallacious phases

STARTING THE LINES BY WORDS THOSE KEPT INSIDE UNTIL

THEY BECOME SO OLD

NOW AND THE WARM FEELINGS TURNED SO COLD
JOYFUL SMILES HAS BEEN KILLED WHEN YOUR GONE

STILL CAN'T UNDERSTAND THE REASONS
MY SOUL TREMBLED, AM STILL SHOCKED

WHEN I LOOK AROUND I CAN'T REALIZE A THING
AND WHEN I STARE AT MY SELF IN THE MIRROR IS THAT ME ?

I WONDERED HOW COULD THIS BE
I HAVE NO PAST NO FUTURE NO MEMORIES

I REMEMBER A NAME ONCE I USED TO CALL
BUT I SEE NO BODY AROUND ME

WITH NOTHING I HAD
WITH NOTHING I LEFT

NOW IN THIS DARK ROOM
ON THIS COLD BED I HAVE SUICIDE INSTINCT