Set My Soul Free...

The gates of heaven are wide open and i can see the angels calling,
Everyday i try to walk up the aisle but backwards i just keep falling,
My soul isn't ready to take this last journey into the heavens above,
Though shattered and broken apart,i somehow feel it is still in love.

I was there,when my casket was being slowly lowered deep into the ground,
Many near and dear ones were there,but on that day you were not around,
I waited all day,hoping you will atleast come to say me a final goodbye,
and shed few tears,though not even once for me,I have ever seen you cry.

Wondering what stopped you from coming,i just dropped into your place,
and i saw you holding your teddy bear with a big smile on your face.
You're talking to your boyfriend and making promises that we once made,
forgetting that from this world and from everyone i was about to fade.

I got into your thoughts,only to know that I'm no more in your prayers,
I looked into your eyes,only to see that I'm no more missed in your tears,
Every night i sit next to you,and ask myself,all this did i really deserve,
why you hate me so much that even our happy memories you don't preserve.

Love isn't always a fairytale,which kind of ends like forever and ever,
for guys like me,it is a kind of feeling that we wish had happened never,
Though everything about her was a lie all the time,it somehow seemed true,
I guess love does make all of us blind with those words of I love you.

Life is so full of traps,and love is the easiest of them for many to fall,
There is never an end to its pain,for it just keeps mounting tall and tall,
I will continue to wander on this earth,till the day she really misses me,
With tear filled eyes,someday she will say a goodbye and "Set My Soul Free"