I couldnt deal with what was going on
No one wanted me
I was sent to the hospital
Once again forgotten
I stayed in my room for days
I didnt talk to no one
I got in trouble over the stupidest things
I didnt belong there
No one liked me
I cryed none stop for 5 days
The other days i remaned slience
Im home now
Im back to cutting and drinking
I started the verry next day
Nothing changed
I relize i might loose everything
Even some day i might loose everyone
I will always have this knife
And tears i can no longer cry
Im so hurt and confussed
I cant stand to be alive
When im in school in happy
You wouldnt relize what i do
When i get home Im a monster out of control
I dont understand y people and things r how they are
But i cant change it
So i expect it
I dont want to stop cutting
Its my only friend that wont leave me
It wont give up on me
Its always here
Its not going anywere
Thanks to the hospital
And what it taught me
I dont want to stop
THis knife is the only thing that will understand me
