Just a kid

I can not find reasoning for me to be alive. My hearts hurts and this makes me want to crawl into a hole and just die. I can' tell what is real or realistic and my mind is not able to separate good from evil, I've gone ballistic.
My friends, family, and loved ones are all so worried. They ask me if I am alright, but that just fills me fury. With school, family, and responsibility my priorities soon become blurry. I I tell them leave me, I need a break but they just reply to hurry.
I am just a kid, no need to be bothered with adult matters. I need sometime to think things over to see what to me matters. I could care less if you like the way I brush my hair, walk, or look. My heart is what counts. Not the outside. It's what's deep within and causes you to sin, that is what should matter.
People lie,cheat,and steal for someones love that is for real. They don't take their time, to let their heart find, feelings and love. Then they find themselves in a bind.
They don't understand fairy tales are only true in books. There is no need to believe them, they are just lies to get you hooked. Hooked on a prince charming, or a prince in shining armor to sweep you off of your feet away from prosperity, or that frog prince, or a midnight fairy wish. Another dream, just a ripple in the pond. But to me they are real. As real as love so true, love thet can only be found between me and you.
Kind words you once whispered in my ear, kind words you wanted no one to hear. I thought I heard you say you loved another. I hope I wake from this nightmare and not find you with some other. Someone else holding you tight. Someone else for one more night.