Past thoughts

The things on my mind
Are weighing me down
On my shoulders they lay
But to my thoughts i am bound

Unexpectedly I think of things
That should never cross my mind
Past events should be forgotten
But to my heart they bind

Past love, past loss
Distractions interfere
Heart beats steady
Yet my past i still fear

My face turns dull
My heart is cold
My body is weak
I haven't the strength to be bold

Tired is my soul
Scattered is my brain
Controlled is my mask
Some one is to blame