Thinking ...

Thinking ...
by: Ash
9/17/08

feeling down
feeling sad
don't know anymore

why should I stay?
Why should I even try?
Why should I live?

It will never get better
it will only get worse
it won't get better

living day in day out
feeling hate and sad
feeling rage and self-hating

I know the truth now
I don't hate you
I don't want you dead

I hate my self
I want to be dead
is that just plain wrong?

It don't hurt when I say I hate my-self
or I want to be dead
I don't really feel any pains at all

so I not afraid to die now
if you get me out
I will make you regretted it

I already got it all plan out
buy some rope
buy some sleeping pills
have a car

don't worry
I will feel good!
but you sure as hell won't!