This is my place

Hearing your voice,
Pierces my heart.
But I have no choice,
This is now my part.

Sitting back and listening,
To your stories and your tales.
Secretly my eyes are tearfully glistening,
When trying to look at other males.

Feeling forgotten,
And bitter inside.
Almost rotten,
With broken pride.

It was only you,
With the power to break.
Then it came into view,
What was at stake.

If only distance could make you see,
The sadness and defeat in my eyes.
I need you to feel the same as me,
Yearning for your other half and fearing any lies.

The one that I wanted,
Seemed not to want me.
Your voice almost haunted,
Like a ghost rarely seen.

Soon I was a shell,
Of what I was before.
Of your angel,
That you didn't want anymore.

I thought if I don't have any causes,
The hurt will disappear.
No more delicate, loving pauses,
No more playful kisses on my ear.

Love never dies,
It doesn't go away.
Trust me I've tried,
To wake up everyday.

And not think about the pain,
Of having a missing piece.
Everyday looks like rain,
When this agony will not cease.

Time to move on,
That's the right thing to do.
Then why does it feel so wrong?
Is it too soon?

It hasn't been long enough,
Forever is too soon.
Do you realise I'm trying to be tough,
And be with someone who isn't you.

I miss my snuggles,
In the middle of the night.
Just one last huggle,
It's just in sight.

But it's out of my reach,
We're too far apart.
I suppose this is my lecture and speech,
For letting sombody touch my heart.

Vulnerable and broken,
Maybe a few times too often.
So many words left unspoken,
Hoping your anger would soften.

I won't leave it like that,
I'll say what you know is true.
But I won't stop and have a chat,
Because you know I still love you...