One Day

Sometimes i can't help,
but hate who've I've become.
i look at myself in the mirror,
and feel myself go numb.

I cry myself to sleep,
every single night.
I'm so lost in this world,
because of the things I've had to fight.

I'm terribly alone in this world,
And deeply broken inside.
All the horrors from my past
for years I've had to hide.

There are only a few things
that stop me from going insane.
Everyday is so hard to survive
for everyday i feel hurt and pain.

My demons are screaming at me,
in the back of my head.
"one shot, and you'll be happy"
"One shot, and you'll be dead"

And how so tempting it is,
to just give it all away.
Maybe I'll do it,
Maybe just one day.