Hes ruining my life
every1 loves him-
-so he turns them all against
--then ignores me--
even tho--
I'm under his seductive spell-
-yet--he doesn't realize--
no mater how many signals i send-
-he dosen't catch it-
--yet i love him-
-4 no real reason-
-and now--
after we broke up(centuries ago)-
-iv been cutting--
it helps me feel closer-
-2 him-
-because thats how his Friends r--
and his Friends-
-r everywhere-
-they dont no-
-how i feel-
-nor does he-
-and i almost don't no either-
-because I'm lost-
-n his world
--mine no longer exsists-
-and being lost--
makes me desperate--
4 him--
2 no me-
-like he used 2-
-wen he would die 2 b with me-
-wen he violated me
--and he liked it--
i liked it even more-
-i would do anything-
-2 have that feeling-
-again--the sensations r like painful-
-shocks-
-of desire-
-hes irresistible-
-yet repelling--
i love it--
about him--
and he hates me-
-he'll never--
no--that i love him-
-like i do--
i almost dont--
want him 2-
-because if he did--
everything would crash--
and burn--
like b4--
wen he was 2 shy--
2 even kiss me--
he never did--
i wanted 2 desperately--
especially--
whenever i came close--
2 his face--
and--
his soft--
gorgeous lips-
-would speak 2 me-
-i cud see his green/blue eyes starring--
starring at me--
and wen i-
-would speak--
he would stare at me with his hypnotic eyes-
-in2 mine-
-and i would stare-
-at his gorgeous mouth--
at his full lips-
-his cute smile-
-and the chip on the side
--of his front tooth-
-it was almost-
-sexy
--how juvenile-
-his mouth looked-
-and the way he dresses--its so weird-
-how hot he can look--
-wen he wares the stupid things he does-
-the shorts n mid winter and all-
-he had me under his seductive spell-
-and now still does-
-even tho we hate each other-
-and i make fun-
-and he calls me a bich-
-and completely disrespects me-
-i still want him--
and i want--
2 no--
how he really feels--
about me--
tho he probably really does hate me--
i still--
want 2 no-
-how he feels
--because I'm under-
-his seductive spell...
