Looking into the future,
i saw us together.
always thinking,
soon we'll be together,
then we were.
i wanted us to stay together.
then i would leave,
wanting to stay with you.
the we were separated longer,
i wanted us together.
you didn't think the same,
now no longer does the future have you in it.
it still hurts with you not here,
would you ever take me back.
knowing how much pain you've put me through,
would i go back
i could drown in the tears I've cried.
if you were to take me back
i would go
but then, would you hurt me again?
how could i trust you?
i let my guard fall too far,
you took advantage
and tossed me aside,
not even tying up the loose ends.
just cut me down
but not to save me from the pain,
the noose was already around my neck
as soon as i fell, hoping you'd catch me.
i knew i was wrong,
that you wouldn't.
slowly i swung back and forth,
crying out for someone to help.
but you were never there
i look into the future now,
i don't see anything,
i can't picture it,
because i don't know how.
should i trust someone else?
lower the guard?
just get over you?
move on.
how? i can't picture it,
nothing is in my future
how can i be strong?
when i never was.
i was only on guard,
not letting things show.
if only things were right,
you would have cut me down,
never taking advantage of the falling guard,
and would have tied the ends.
maybe i could move on then,
but i don't want to.
because i want the future i saw,
the one with me happy.
