Im Back To Where I Was Before

I'm back to where i was before
a life full of heartbreaks
full of deceit and lies
i don't want this anymore

its a reward to see you happy
though I'm crying
and slowly dying
its hard to set you free

i remember those days we laughed
heart to heart we smiled
it was good for a while
and in a flash, i have nothing left

i don't know what else to say
I'm left here wondering
why do i feel dying?
my heart has gone away

i can love you from far away
even though it hurts me
and i know I'll get beat
but I'm here to stay

i want you to know its been good
having you by my side
even for a short while
existence of love to me you proved

but sadly it has all come to an end
tears and pain i feel inside
thats what's left aside
i wish my heart would mend

i am back to where i was before
getting through each day

as tears slowly go away
i don't think i can handle much more