Christian ;
every time i say "i love you"
it crushes me
in ways that never surface.
everything, every word.
keeps hidden underneath my skin.
all i want to do is scream.
let it out.
if i said something, in the heat of the moment,
would you forgive me?
or would you walk away?
let it out.
tell me, what would you do?
you always said; "i love you too."
your not really a liar, but i have nothing else to believe. let it out.
those little words, millions of big meanings.
they have ruined me. turned me inside out.
do you still want me, now that i am broken?
now that i am shattered?
or will you throw me away,
push me into the back of your closet.
never speak about it?
every time i let you in, you push me out.
i know i dont deserve to be happy,
but i like to try and believe otherwise.
please let it out,
and let me in..
