And now that we've been back together for a month.
Its just not the same. I still cry every night.
I'm trying not to drink myself into a comma.
now when you hug me, its just a hug.
When you touch me its just a touch.
I act like I'm still head-over-heels.
Everyone even my closest friends think that were doing great.
But today when you did what you did, it angered me so much.
Its all I've been able to think about.
Then i realized, getting back with you has just made my heart break even more.
I want to be with you. I love you...or at least i think that i still do.
But the more i think about it. Who do i go to when I'm sad? happy? angered? I go to my best friend.
The sad thing is that you, you're not him.
I think during the heartbreak of you, i fell for him instead.
And the worst part of it is that the hardest part of crying over you every night is knowing that he'll know whats wrong with me and you wont have a clue.
He's never tried to get me to change...but thats all youve ever tried to do.
I'm tired of my eyeliner running down my face every night and coming to school with a hangover and every1 but you knowing y i have one and you just think its a migrain.........
