This pain

Trailing blood on my arm
From my beautiful crimson art
Picture perfect painted by blade
a small release from this pain in my heart

Leaving scars and stories
That will forever remain
Knowing that perfection
Is something I'll never obtain

Scars leave reminders
Of all the pain I feel
All i feel is cold, hurt, and hate
Wishing this wasn't real

Always wishing to end this
Always dreaming to leave
For happiness is something
I can never hope to receive

Feeling so lonely in this world
my life is one sad song
Why do I deserve this?
What did I do wrong?

what does it matter now
my brain is in a hydroplane
because my mind is drowning in this chaos
my soul is caged up by this pain