Simply Complicated

I've missed you so much lately.
Did you leave or did I let you go?
I know we've both been busy.
No conversations or hellos.

I know I've been cold hearted.
Spiteful and immature.
I wanted to tell you how I felt,
But I wasn't sure.

I wanted to go up and greet you,
But I got weak in the knees.
Just being around you
Brings the weakness out in me.

You're no saint yourself,
You're so self satisfied.
I said I never cried for you,
I'll admit I lied.

I know you can't be good for me,
You're so dominating,
Unpredictable, untrustworthy.
Not to mention intimidating.

I thought I couldn't stand you,
But I must've been inexactive,
Because when I glanced back at you,
You were suddenly so attractive.