With or Without you

Where do I start now?
I thought that it was over long ago
But holding your hand never seemed
So right, as it did last night

Years have passed without you here,
I was the one who told you to go.
Love had left and you kept holding on
I walked away knowing I'd never find

Another man like you to fill my life.
Seeing your eyes shinning so bright
Under each and every stage light
Guitar in your hands, every word a truth

I can't seem to live with or without you
I have him now, though he's not mine
Fighting for his love, I slowly drown
He'll never live up to the standards you set

But I shouldn't be here now, living this memory
All those things that tore us even further apart
I should remember them, but as I stare into
Your eyes and smile you take me back to when

Everything was perfection, when you held me
When you tore me away from self destruction
And I'm holding on to a boy that will never be mine
Instead of walking back into your arms

It surprised even myself, reacting to your touch
Smiling, as you smiled back, I knew and whispered,
"He's the one I'll marry one day!"
But I don't want you yet, I can't let go of what I have

I need to take this slow, so I won't let on
No, I won't let you know
And maybe I'll loose you again, maybe you'll let go
But if it's you and me, that's meant to be

We'll find our way back, into each other's arms
But for now I'll hind behind everything I can
Just so you won't see the truth