Its Over....Everything..

I stood there with no word to say...
My heart got deafening then..
for one minute i couldnt hear it anymore.
i thought this was it..my heart finally stopped.
not a tear in sight.
completely silent
I got home i swear my entire life blacked out..
how?
how could he look at someone else, or want to be with someone else...
ive never loved anyone as much as i love him, but i have never hated someone so much either...
my life has ended
my world was gone.
i dont ever want to breathe again...
or even shed a tear.
its over..everything...
all i did was love
but it wasnt good enough..
yet, i can still feel him around me
i can hear whispers in my ear as i sleep.
i swear its him. but its not, im alone

( its not finsished yet)