Thanks for all the pain

You made me trust you,
You said, hey i will never hurt you,
What a fool I was,
I trusted you with all my heart,
I gave you my heart,
You took it, excitingly, as if you had a plan for my heart,
Slowly you started to squeeze it with every ounce of evil,
you controlled my emotions,
Every beat of my heart belonged to you,
But eventually you got tired and bored of my pain,
So you threw my heart away,
Now I'm left here, wondering ermm what did I do wrong?
I did nothing but loved you, cared for you, respected you.
But you just took everything for granted,
You left me when I needed you the most,
No reasons, no explanation,
all those dreams, that I built,
They came crashing down like a building made of playing cards,
Now I'm all alone, I'm really torn apart,
It is hard to smile, even harder to grieve,
But every day for few moments, I let my heart weep in pain,
I let these tears flow, I grieve uncontrollably,
It's only then I can get back on my feet,
Every night before I goto sleep, I think of you, and think of what you did,
But I don't hate you, I don't even dislike you,
I guess I'm too hurt to even accept these emotions,
You have no idea what you have done to me,
But I forgive you,
I hope one day you,ll realise how much you've hurt me,
I hope one day my heart will return to me, because you see it's lost ever since you threw it away,
One day I hope this pain will go away,
One day I hope i will learn how to live without you,
But I've accepted the fact that one day all good things come to a tragic end,
No more love for me , no more heartache,
No more fairy tales, just no more pain,
Because you see I'm not capable of coping with this pain you left.