The last time?

Am i going to keep holding onto the past?
i promise this will be the first and last.
why am i doing this again?
i didn't even realize when it began.
question is, do i want this or that?
why do i keep holding onto something thats not working,
why do i keep thinking it'll be worth the feeling,
I've let it go once, I've let it go twice.
it always comes back, and i have to pay the price