Wounding Whispers

As I lay awake in bed,
a voice whispers in my ear.
It repeats all the things,
you said when you were near.

"You know you're the only reason,
the only reason I believe.
Because of you,
a better life I want to lead.

I told you about my past,
you said it didn't matter.
Baby because of you,
my life is a whole lot better.

You know I truly believe,
us being together was fate.
God had a plan for me,
he knew you were my soul mate."

I cover my ears,
to try and block out the sound.
My head starts to spin,
my heart begins to pound.

"Sweetheart in your hands,
you hold my heart.
Together we'll be happy,
we'll make a fresh start.

I'll never break your heart,
this you need to know.
I'll always be there for you,
everywhere you go.

I love you so much,
you're the love of my life.
And it won't be long,
before you're my beautiful wife."

There's protection around my heart,
a cold stone wall.
But these whispers are breaking it down,
they're making it fall.

"Later on in life,
we'll start a family of your own.
We'll have 2 or 3 kids,
and a beautiful home.

I want a daughter first,
one as beautiful as her mother.
And a few years later,
we'll give her a baby brother.

You're the best thing,
that's ever happened to me.
Baby please don't ever leave,
without you I wouldn't be."

My body starts to shake,
as tears run down my cheeks.
My heart begins to hurt,
my soul begins to weep.

Why is this happening,
it hurts so much.
Isn't it enough,
that I have to live without his love?

Wounding whispers,
inside my mind.
I'll forever search,
for what used to be mine.

© January 11, 2007