Life hurts right now
theres a pounding in my head
and a constant throb in my heart;
the person I am is conquoring
the person i know i should be.
I should be happy,
happy fgor you
happy that your content.
happy that she's making you happy.
I should be grateful
tat I even have you for
a friend.
grateful that somebody like you
even talks to me.
yet...I don't really feel much
of that.
Oh, some, sure,
but really,
I'm sad.
A slow grey haze has
taken over my spirit.
and I am angry,
I am angry that I f* cked it up.
I am angry that again
I don't measure up.
again, the person i feel msot for
feels the same way
aboutsomeone else.
I am jealous becuase she
has you.
I am jealous becuase she
knows the feeling of your skin
against hers.
I am jealous because i will
never know your lips and she will
forever have that memory.
but i still am sad.
sad because oneday
you may love her.
