Just for me

Wiping off the make up
Seeing who I really am
I bet you wouldn't look twice then
You wouldn't smile at me the way you do now

Fighting off the tears
It's easy to do
When you've been doing it for so long
It's never the first time you've handled the situation

If I could just get rid of the butterflies
The beautiful and the ugly
Maybe I could get through the week
Without you going through my mind

I wear the nicest clothes I can find
Hoping you might tell me I look pretty tonight
I keep hoping you'll look at me just that bit too long
And I'll know you feel the same way

And then you kiss me
And I'm lost in this beautiful painful abyss
And as you pull away you smile
And I tell myself it's going to be okay

Then night comes
And I know I'm lying to myself
Big girls don't cry right
Well I'm not crying right now
But that doesn't mean I don't want too

If you could just take the time
The moments, the minutes
I know you'd see me as I am
And not as I appear to be

Maybe if you took the time
You could try feel the same way
That's all I'm asking for
Try
Just for me