My Only Pain Relief

I am just so fed up
Of feeling so low
I'm holding on to life
But I just want to let go

I keep myself to myself
Curtains drawn, door shut
Theres only one pain relief
And that relief is to cut

Ive got scars in my mind
And cuts cover my arm
I didn't think hurting myself
Would cause you any harm

Cutting makes me happy
It makes me feel alive
Ironic as it may seem
Cutting helps me survive

Its a pain relief for me
And a weakness too
But by cutting myself
I don't feel so blue