I loved someone so much it hurt
All I ever wanted for them to invest in me
in who I am
in what I love
in what I want to accomplish
and then one day they told me no
where do I go from here?
How do I pick those pieces up?
When their pride and hopes for me to succeed was everything I'd ever wanted
but they told me they'd invested enough else where
that they were done
no room for me as an investment
I'd seen their pride and joy
but never in me
and then they told me I'll never have the chance
I still see them everyday
but now I have no reason to hope in them
they are not a place where I can feel appreciated or valued
I am just a commitment
A paper they signed
They are counting the days until I leave
what is now 300 what?
7200 hours?
432000 minutes?
25920000 seconds?
How long?
Too long...
And now I feel the same
I have been here too long
And I do will be here to long
the truth
I will not
I cannot
Pick up these pieces
So I will walk away
and leave that piece of me shattered on the ground
I will not be their sense of pride
or their investment
I want them to see how much it hurts
I want them to see how I suffer
and if they wonder why
I want them to know it is because I know that I am not worth their investing in
so I walk away
but I walk away with the knowledge that...
I am God's eternal investment and His pride and joy
