I'm in a frenzy
all i want to do is write
spill out what i feel
emotions overflow me
out through my fingers
tears fill my eyes yet my fingers do the work
i cant stop the feelings.
i want to live
i want to die
i look at my fingers getting cold, blue, painfull.
i feel my heart beat in my head.
i know i need to calm, but i can, I WONT!
keeping this frenzy alive, but wishing to die.
i keep thinking what would it all be like if i was gone.
gone from this place, this room, this life.
it all builds up then falls apart, always!
why
why do i feel like this.
i want to sleep, forever
take my last breath and kiss you goodbye
just to say goodbye
i leave, and i wont come back, not this time I'm sorry, but not this time.
