Perfect life.........?

I can fly,
But only in my dreams.
I love to smile,
But only frowns beam.

I am strong,
When no ones around.
I am confident,
When no people surround.

I am nice,
When I rarley speak.
I am curious,
But I never seek.

I am smart,
Only in my mind.
I see the world different,
But I act blind.

I am one of a kind,
Just not in the good way.
I will never give up,
Because I have nothing to give away.

Im always truthful,
Except when I lie.
I have so much to live for,
And yet I want to die