For so long now
Have I lain here staring at the ceiling
Completely alone
No one to hold my hand
No one to share my overflowing love with
I need the comfort of a human hand
Yet none will give me the chance
To prove my worth
To prove my zeal
So many have I loved now,
So many have I betrayed
I try to think not of the terrible things my lies have done
But in the end my thoughts all lead back
Back to that one fateful day
This day just happens to be the first time I noticed my first love
Shy and innocent I could not have been anything but the opposite of her
She deserved a man,
Yet I gave her a boy and left her in tears
Looking back if only I had learned from my mistakes and those repeated
If only I had made the same moves over and over again
Like a broken record I cycled through my early adolescence
Breaking so many beautiful hearts
In turn hardening my own
Raising walls that even now lay erect
Yet for her I would tear them down using my hands alone.
For her...
I would tear my heart out anew so that I could lay it at her feet
